Why do we as women always seem to take on more then we can handle? Do you notice that? I know it isn't just ME. I feel like for some reason women are just more willing to give themselves over to others to better them even if it means killing themselves. Today a friend of mine called me who I hadn't talked to in YEARS. She needed a favor and I just happened to live in the area she needed something from. Did I mind her calling and asking? NO! Was I offended that she asked me to do something for her when I haven't heard from her in years? NOPE! In fact, I felt horrible that I just couldn't help her out today. It really wasn't in the cards for me today to do anything much but yell at my kids apparently. I am having an extremely hard time with my son. Without getting too personal let's just say that he is SO good at school and at church but for some reason when he gets home he just doesn't want to be good any more. I understand. I really do. But it has been driving mentally insane trying to deal with him all of the time. The worse of it for me is that his sister is learning ALLLLL of this from watching him and now I am starting to have problems with her as well. I am glad that he is so good for other people but I wish he understood that he should ESPECIALLY want to be good for his OWN MOTHER! He totally does not understand that. We have been trying EVERYTHING lately. I try something for a week or two and it doesn't work so I try something else. The latest thing I REALLY thought was going to help and so far it hasn't. The thing that frustrates me more then anything is that a LOT of his problem is personality traits and not something behavioral. For instance today I put him in time out. I have a rule that you can not talk in time out or your time out starts over. Lately this has become a thing of the past and I was trying to revive it. I told him not to talk or even make a single sound. The second I said that he made a whining noise. Why should I get to tell him what to do, right? I mean, I'm only his mother. So I took a bean out of his jar ( when he fills up his jar we get to go do something fun! ) and then I say make another noise and I will take another one out. Most kids would stop but not my stubborn little boy. he makes another noise immediately. I ended up taking out about 8 to 10 beans just because he wouldn't stop making noises. Does anyone have any suggestions on kids with that stubborn attitude I am talking about? REALLY, anything might help. I am at my whits end with him. This is only one of the several problems I am having with him. I won't get into the others but any advice would be wonderful. It has been a long day for me. Every morning is a battle to get him ready for school. Every morning I end up screaming at him because he simple won't do what I tell him to....I just don't know how much more I can take of it
My mother told me about a great article my church put out about fasting with a purpose. I read it. I am going to fast and pray that him and I can work through this together. I know my son is a child of God. I know he was given to me for a specific purpose and I love him more then life itself. He is one of the sweetest kids you will ever meet, he just has that temper that I just don't know what to do with. So for now I am trying my best to stay calm, not yell, and keep reminding him that I love him. When I remember these 3 things, everything gets better but sometimes.....I forget!!!